Inside My Head

Maintenance

In August of 2013, I wrote a week-long series of posts chronicling how I lost 40 lbs. Each day was dedicated to a different aspect of that process. Today’s post is a follow-up and talks about the challenges associated with maintaining that goal weight. The last time I hit 185 lbs. on the scale was…

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Evolve

Familiarity breeds contempt. Change is the only constant. Adapt or die. These are all clichés rooted in fundamental truth. The relentless thrust of progress renders the past untenable for the future, and merely instructive at best as we doggedly carve a path forward in all we do. Boldness is rewarded, staid consistency left to wither…

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Throwback

As we bid farewell (and in some cases good riddance) to 2013, a small group of friends joined Kristin and me at our house and partied like it was 1999. Again. I normally abhor New Year’s Eve and have spent many of my favorite ones quietly at home with my wife well asleep in advance…

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Finality

This was the original post I wrote, but never finished after our final failed IUI. I wasn’t going to post it, but after re-reading it and writing my real infertility wrap-up, I decided it might have value. I hope you enjoy it. It was Italy. We had a ton of sex. Why wouldn’t we? This…

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Moratorium

Here it is: Our last IUI attempt didn’t work. We are done actively trying to have kids for now. We cannot put ourselves through any more heartache, so we’re declaring a six month moratorium on any and all family planning discussions and decisions. I wrote a whole thing about this (that I just re-read) and…

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Thankful

As you certainly already know, tomorrow is Thanksgiving. On my previous website, we used to celebrate this holiday by inviting readers to make insane choices between something they’d like to eat, someone they’d like to have sex with, and something they’d like to drive. We’d award prizes to those with the most correct answers. On…

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Halloween

There’s nothing quite like Halloween to bum you out about infertility. I used to love Halloween. I loved everything about it – the candy, the dressing up in weird costumes, the merriment, the freedom from obligation of gift giving – just fucking everything. Halloween was the greatest. Yet the last two Halloweens I haven’t done…

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Stressed

I haven’t written much lately, and the reasons for that are several. I outline them below, and offer up a few items for discussion. This will likely be the only update this week as well, and with me going to Italy next week, things will likely be sparse around here for the next couple of…

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Trash

As much as I might hate certain teams, (and I do) I’m done trash talking any of their fans. I just don’t have it in me anymore. And truthfully, I never did, anyway, so it’s not like this is any great loss. But I realized very acutely after this weekend just why I don’t talk…

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Thirty-two

Having set this up earlier this week, let’s dive right into it. I used to call this feature “Songs to Close Out Your Summer” when I wrote it for Cru Jones Society, and I think I was probably a bit too optimistic regarding my ideas about its impact on the readership. “Oh hey, I’ve been…

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